Behind The Song "Solo"

When I wrote the song “Solo”, I was in a place in my life where I had just lost my father to Leukemia during Covid-19, I had already had limited time to see my parents because of the risk due to their ages. I was struggling with staying sober at the time. I would go through what anyone who had lost someone close to them would have felt emotionally. I was lost and it was extremely hard to focus on my day to day. It made my depression and anxiety a lot harder to deal with. Fortunately, I had a great support system around me that encouraged that the days would get lighter. I had to take a ride solo, and look within myself and remind myself that i have much left to do with life and that I can only give what I can and do my best in each day. I had to take care of me and dig deeper and make my bed with new uncomfortable changes. I had to find a circle of people that I could trust. I can’t have expectations of others to do the work for me, the song was a response to being able to identify with “my behaviors of isolating and letting alcohol and substances be my crutch when real hardships start to add pressure to life” The song is about walking through the pain even if you don’t think you’re going to make it out and letting go. Having the strength to say no to things that don’t nurture your spirit. Being open to the idea that I will grow from hard times and it humbled me to try harder. I know that I may not always be as perfect as I like to be, but ultimately its about making the climb to becoming a better version of yourself. I hope this song can remind others that they are not alone and that there are safe spaces and ways for us to express ourselves and find a path to healing. There is a way to find new comfort and joy from things that we wouldn’t normally. The song reminds me that the process isn’t always going to be what I want it to be, however I must continue on!