POEMS

After Prison:

RIse

Dreaming in space

at glance, its this world

for reference, I AM FREE

never adventure alone…

fully awoke, unlocking the chambers of the heart

blood flow. its love’s adrenaline

my daily dose of medicine

escape to imagination. ONE WAY OUT. and that is ELEVATION

to the galaxy far away from hate and discrimination

TEACH ME UNIVERSE

Tell me something I’ve been longing to hear.

Take me away and save my spirit from the devil I fear.

Restore my wounds and quiet my battle cry

I’m slowly passing time and ready for change to amplify my existence

Talk kindly my dear, you are on course

blush

I am halted by the unconditional efforts to see a new day with you

Seasons rolling over, panic and pleasure

anxiety and pressure, surviving the lecture

rehearsing traumas, healing conscious, freeing toxins

treating states of mind, oh how beautiful it is to trust love

defenseless to the romances that fall in line

first responded on scene, cupid’s on a shooting spree

Unexpected Love

Love has its way of grounding you

Leaving you to figure it out

unconditionally accepting and embracing the highs and the lows

respecting and honoring the mind body and spirit

taking responsibility for our efforts and bringing happiness to the table

reflecting on growth and having consistency

evolving the language of love, taking in the vulnerabilities and securing each other to safety.

Healthy smiles and patient ears, truthful conversations, fragile temptations, simple to love

Laughter under the stars, glowing in the dark, she already knows, my truths set in stone

my best and my bold, savor to my soul

Poems from prison:

ASH TRAY

Burn this page

With a cigarette

Something you cant forget

Nicotine and anxiety

help me breathe

Reflect this on this figure in your mind

Your in need

Product of the seed

When monsters tempt

But the soul stays free

We let the doubt be

Solemnly swear

What we believe

Not what others perceive

Dream to succeed

Pass through the rally

Here your people cry

Hold the world tight

So freedom isn’t forced to fight

Bottoms Peak

So high, I watch the skyline

Her smile behind the sunshine

I once asked if she could be mine

God give me a sign

A better place a better time

Trying to find a purpose

a meaning to mankind

Future leaves me blind

Believe those eyes

Bright with flames

Once covered in chains

Society consists of all these games,

I keep moving

switching lanes.

Private planes, caught it in a video

Demons get tricky tho

Hurricane thoughts inflicted pain talks

Trained thoughts to a stop

Something strange under the embers,

Crimson red colors burn, where ashes turn

Bullets to the chest, not enough for a bullet proof vest

CONSUMERS WASTE

We got something..

Something piled up.

Driven from directions

You’ve made your selection

Spill on a blank canvas

Loud with potential dreams

Pouring down on window frames

Parade the day

the weather will change

you are the eye of the storm

what is your forecast?

Hour glass creations

Searching destinations

Never force fed

Currents Change

Walking the tight rope with opportunity. Straight lines to success. Living with a balance. Moving in a rhythm. Being heard these voices speak. Wait for the moment it is yours to keep. Civilization makes you the one. Watch to see who is standing.rise inside you are the sun. floating happiness in the oxygen. Never felt so good to breathe. Every now and then we sneeze. Every person knows what it is to bleed. Its all about how you heal. So then you deal. And for the first time you feel. And discover what is real. Started from a sketch. Turned into a masterpiece. Brought from greatness. My mind was tasteless. My thoughts were faithless. My heart was weightless. Escape the fate. Splattered with paint. These pages aren’t blank. The surface is smooth. Creativity is alive. Beauty behind her eyes. What else is out there?

DARK DAYS HOLLOW CAVES

My heart feels hollow

Empty but filled with sorrows

Emotionless gaze with no response

No trial left to follow

Not a drop of happiness around to borrow

Lucky if I make it tomorrow

This weight is hard to swallow

Im about to throw in the towel

The amount of care lacks this situation

Shallow

Life too fragile

Living is a hassle

This darkness is almost impossible to tackle

Covered in shackles

Stuck in a boat without a paddle

Bags backed and no place to travel

STRUGGLE

Only two fit to pull the carriage. Company awaits for the arrival, safety is vital. Significance behind the title. A few hours feels like while. All means necessary. Reinforcements. Watch the need for loyalty add another to the pile. Whole life caught on file. How dare you take away that smile? The word missed doesn’t even describe how much I wish I was there with you. Away from your world I feel destroyed. Detached crossed off the map. Never-ending sleep. Nightmare silence screams. Tryna find a way back. Under attack. Mind erased. Stuck in the headlights. Your version of paradise. I heard about the things that you like. Had me thinking I was your type. Dead set on a house maybe wife, shit was tight. Helped me see the light, when it was the fight of my life. When my head was an explosive device. Struggling to pay life’s price. You hurt me not once but twice. What am I suppose to do throw on some ice?

Take some shots to get me feeling nice? Im good, reaching some heights. Knot tied tight. Maybe we wont forget. How our promises weren’t met. Don’t loose sleep, im sure you haven’t yet. You could of left it as a secret. But I loved you, and I knew you couldn’t keep it.

Headphone Telephone

Not settling

Im reaching for existence

Ill be persistent

Find it in your interest

Ill take the difference

My heart makes up the sum

Misunderstandings

Impatient clouds

Feeling engaged

I keep thinking

How I cant stop thinking

We go to places

Where we hide

These occasions

Keep my mind elevated

Ive lost track of time

Where did you run?

Hidden in a Taxi Car

The peak of fall

The days..

I couldn’t of counted them all..

Still no call

My dreams have me standing tall

While old feelings stay small

Traffic around the clock

When do the quiet smiles stop

Old times

These bold crimes

Her soul is blind

Shes scared of what she may find

True story

Crowds in a hurry

Love worries

At what cost?

runaway

I had a dream I ran away to the circus

Tryna find my purpose

Maybe fit in with the freaks

Some of these acts just creep and creep

Jumped this train down these tracks

Made my way livin too fast

Pursuing lies

Cutting ties

Edge of your seats

Audience

Filled with selfish intentions

Even after death, life still wins

You cant count the losses

Look at where you’ve gained

Petals on a flower

These lions, tigers and bears

Play cards with bearded ladies and acrobats

Throw you through a ring of fire

Keep yours

Pedestal view in your surrounding

Representation is what you feed

To feel the mainstream

Your heart pays for the act

Manifestations

Of the latest stations

Steps are complacent

Puzzle piece mystery

Letters of your textbook history

Closing paragraphs without conclusions

Day dream delusions

Essays without solutions

You write your own illusions

Crumbled paper

July

Small hills on top of hills

Long ways

Distant houses

Pause

Power lines through trees

The air is so invited

Senses delighted

A risky breeze

Flow breathes

For the pull of words

Hot air balloons tackle skylines

Field of clouds and friendly faces

Jumping fences

The things we make last

Loud sounds and impulses of excitement

Merging with the sun

We dance for fun

Kites we never flew

Descending from the sun

A reason to run

Chasing for fun

You keep this young

We collide a force of one

Tips of tongues getting samples of the good life

You’re not just anyone

You are every song that’s sung

Head spun

Mixing triggas

you held the gun

Hit me in the chest

Shot me deep, not deep enough for you to see

leaving wounds all over me

Kept a hold on me

When things aren’t meant to be

I need a little bit just to keep a gentle breeze

Mentally, my minds staring at an empty seat

Physically..

Time tried to get rid of me

Put me in some misery

Everything it did to me

Winded me

Hinder me

Emotions that disagree

Cant count on what you don’t see

You kept your eye on the trophy

Hope screams

For a tag team

From a love dream

With a sun queen

Intensity burning in my sensory

Tones sound elementary

Walk into the cemetery

Old ways could be the death of me

Use the good as an accessory

Take whats left of me

Craving your secrets

I don’t mind sinking

Unknown oceans

Ripples from all your waves

How you communicate

At times simple ways

Things we say

Follow street signs

Pink lemonade skies

Baby blue eyes

Persuaded

How long do we hang

Before we fall out of the frame

How hard do you shake

When your heart stays awake

Tides don’t fade

Blurry behind bars

Questions to these thoughts

Any remarks or comments?

Reasons for these responses?

Effects from causes?

Problems and no answers?

Still this time we have to go

Experience with age

Age isn’t promised in life

Best of what we got

Curiosity kills when you cant see outside

Who what where and why

I guess we make today our own

Live like its my last

Soak up some happiness

Find a positive vibe

Love who you are

Making the breaking

Create and defy

What you seek

Put your finger on

No one understands

That their all in disguise

Catch the truth by surprise

A plan you devised

Only you can find

Prison is not a joke

Kinda fucked up, sitting in a fucked up situation. Wishing I didn’t give a fuck, feeling below the surface.. waiting for a black out, strip me of my memory.

Im a prisoner stuck in time. Pacing back and forth, the file cabinets in my brain.

Excuses to release this trigger, so the problems gets bigger, and the slope gets slip pier

I look okay on the exterior, but im broken and confused on the interior. Cant stand looking at myself in this blurred of a mirror. Ugly is what I see. Self- poor images has me beat. Embarrassed to stand on my feet. Hating on myself so bad, who needs haters? No easy way out. Sick and tired of the same old route. Trying to find meaning of what this all is really about…

Solitary confinement

Segregation .. you against the odds. A compromise just to make it even. Distinctions of everyday. The cycle never changes. Days that are dry. We all seem to be connected to the thirst for water. Drain clogged with dark image. Stuck like a CD scratched, skipped line on the same damn song. Something in our minds here have gone wrong. Where can we find a repair?

Unresponsive to existence, the transmitters gone numb. Reached capacity. Sealed invitation.

Shes in the wind

Look through your eyes

See what you know

Know which one to pick

Not the kiss and run

But the one to waste time in the sun

Words can be spun

But not the air I breathe

Your filling

Or tripping

What heart wishes to be drunk

Sour summers

The sweetest serenade, like lemon in my lemonade.

There goes the parade, we’ve been awake for days.

Clouds collide on a warm Sunday.

Feel the air run through my fingers as if my hands where out the car window

I got no business around here

I hate to watch myself leave

When myself is begging me to stay

And ill be fine

Explosions in my mind

Chemicals are toxic

Fatal to the brain

We fight against the norm

A path black nor white, not even grey

All I see are these patterns that go all different ways

Born with intention

We can’t let this go to waste

Bodies filling the negative space

Spinning around we fall to the ground

Lay in this grass and feel the earth move away

Around again we go another year of dismay

Capture a moment tuck it away

Spend your tokens wisely

Which game will you play?

pre-release

Wind blows right through me, but I can’t feel the breeze

Air is a tease

Toxic fumes suffocate me

Blackened in my lungs, I fucking hate me

Searching for a piece of atmosphere

Just a little space for happiness on the wall

Thoughts scatter

Feelings run

This form of punishment has won

A shadow, a shade, a figure that never goes

Following me around, sadness stepping on my toes

Nobody ever knows

My heart froze

Winter got some dull colors

My glass is full

Tyrna let these emotions roll

Don’t remind me of the smiles you stole

Just to play the role

Sick inside your soul

Self-destructive thoughts come with a toll

Madness digs its hole

Where I sit on this road and watch everything pass by.

Canteen

The features in your face

All the mistakes

In the back of my mind im in a peaceful place

Searching..

My minds beginning to erase

Too fast paced

I cant keep up the chase

Ill run and ill race

As long as this thought keeps me safe

I fall into a maze

Will we go our separate ways?

Do we have time to wage?

Is there room for change?

I sit, and im stuck in a gaze

Running over every phrase

On endless days

We start to fade

What game have you played?

Takes a bow and walks the stage

Flipping the script

To a ripped out page

That could have pieced together

What we should have saved

I try to forgive

How does one betray

TREMOR

She came through the night

Breathing just fine

Glowing like fire flies

How could I decide?

My body disconnected

From this head spin

Discussion splashes through wonder

We’re on the road again

Her Game my pain

Retrace your steps

Rewind the scenes

Trembling through time

Stuck In between

You live and choose what you forget

Traveling through all my dreams

My heart screams

Playing its puppet strings

To hear the sound of the wind